Back to the picnic

[needgrace]

Thank you Cadet, you are so so right. I have heard you say this before but did not get it until I was actually there. What amazing people I have the opportunity to know.

Thanks, SD. How are you?? You have been quiet lately. I miss your sene of humor here.

Sweet Busting, wish you could have joined us. Actually I wish all three of you (Cadet and SD) could have been there. It was our blanket in real life.

JOURNAL

This week is the anniversary of when W met OW out for dinner (we had been friends with OW and her ex) and then changed her mind on her decision to work on our M. As such this has been a more difficult week for me, but I am reminding myself:

1) this is the FINAL first anniversary/date of significance. YAY!

2) i have grown through this in ways i needed to grow to enjoy myself and my life.

3) this is where I need to be....there is more growth ahead of me, i am facing down more fears and building more confidence.

4) this too will pass and i will be okay.

i think a case can be made for us LBS' experiencing a form of PTSD. i have many memories and intrusive thoughts flooding me this week. i continue to work on changing my thoughts, meditation and living in the present. it is definitely less intense, less frequent and i move through the feelings quicker.

i have so much to be grateful for and i am reminding myself of that too.. i have been blessed beyond belief in so many ways in my life. being here and all of your support is one of the biggies. thank you.