Confused compass?

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I know I have to learn patience .... but its more about trusting in the process

My suggestion is to learn the process first.
How can you trust it if you don't know what it is?

Thats what I did.
That took a lot of research and learning.

There is a lot of advice out there, but IMHO it all boils down to the same.

Stop pursuit.

Solo Partner book really helped me with that.
There is a thread here on it and other things out on the internet.

This is not a quick fix, most LBS give up.
But it is all up to you.
There can always be HOPE if you want there to be.

Just no EXPECTATIONS.