not sure where to go from here

[tiredndrained]

I hear ya. They are tricky. Just when you let your guard down they change again. I wonder if they ever really come back?? My H still insists he not doing anything wrong and thinks I should just take his word on that. When in our entire 18 yrs has he just left all night constantly with no answer or explanation other than when I caught him with an OW? And, I'm supposed to be OK with this? Crazy that their mind just doesn't see how ridiculous that is.