It'll happen, you're still early in this. Practice everyday recognizing your emotions and riding them out, letting them pass through you. You have a lot of bottled up stuff inside that bubbles out.
I started by doing a meditation called Ride the Wild Horse and that helped, then I moved on to other meditations. I was a crier, which really drove my H crazy and me, too because I felt out of control.
I feel like I control my emotions now, my emotions don't control me.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss