Studies in Feral Cats, part 5

[reachingHigher]

T^2,

I'm glad tvs answered you in her eloquent way. She said it better than I can.

This is so painful as part of the growing/being there process. I know from what you said that there is much you didn't say.

You ARE the man no woman would want to leave. And your W hasn't left. She is staying and growing and learning and accepting and sometimes that is fun and sometimes that is painful.

She is a remarkably strong woman to stay and face this pain. She has these issues from long ago and here you are to help her through this metamorphosis.

You are talented, kind, a good provider, a great dad, lover, cook, artist, gardener, listener, funny, handsome, have good morals, (not in order of importance -- just as they came to mind -- lol!)

Hang in there and give yourself some self-soothing rituals today. You deserve it.

It's ups and downs with these MLCers. My H didn't go to MG but went out drinking last night with a half-hearted "I might come by the house. Do I hafta tell you now?" But I didn't hear from him all evening nor did I expect to. And more drinking planned for tonight. So I have my doubts as to how our special valentines day dinner will go tomorrow. H seems to be needing a lot of extra sleep lately. I hope tomorrow's plans are not a disaster like our anniversary dinner last May. I'd rather be home alone than that. So it's two steps forward and one back. Sometimes two or three back. But we keep moving forward.

More than one of my friends/family are encouraging me to throw In the towel. Or throw it AT him as MWD says! But we don't do that. We just patiently wait while taking care of ourselves since our spouse can't help us with that right now

I'll have you in my heart today. Thinking of you and wishing you strength, rest and courage!!!

Hugs,
rH