Wife privileges reinstated, back in my own bed!

[mamabird]

Hi Wendy,
Thanks for checking in. Re-entry wasn't bad, but to be fair I wasn't expecting a whole lot. But I'm really trying to be more mindful and keep my emotions in check so that I can be "receptive" vs. "reactive".

We did have an interesting conversation about money - I tend to have anxiety about it and he tends to have a more positive or long-reaching outlook, and those things should complement each other. But what I realized is that while our personalities and strengths complement each other, we have fallen into this pattern of seeing the other's strength as a weakness. He agreed when I told him that.

Today in MC H told the therapist that he thought we always had an "assumed intimacy" which had just run its course. I think that makes a lot of sense.

I'm still feeling a little bit numb about the R in general. I don't have a lot of energy to put into it at the moment. I'm not feeling bad or good about it; just kind of neutral as if I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Not sure why that is. I guess I was so used to not being treated well that I a) expect it and b) think at some level that I deserve it. So not healthy.