I guess I will just keep posting to myself and eventually hit one hundred lol!!
Journal:
H and I texted back and forth today. He took me to task for a few things in our marriage but then admitted he was being a dickhead lol and was just having a hard time equating logical with emotional self. He understands I love him and want him, but emotionally wonders why now and not before?
I basically laid it on the line and said I thought he was sexy and was very attracted to him, however I had no interest in taking up old relationship by the people we were. That I wanted a new relationship to see where it would go. I felt that I was not the person he knew and perhaps he wold not even be attracted to new me.
That I loved him and am good with that.
That I am moving forward on my own path and am good with that, but I decide what my path entails and if I don't want or need so done else beside me that is my choice ( he keeps pushing me to date etc)
That I know he may never love me in the way I want and I am good with that as well.
That I love his lightness and his dark and only want him, as he is.
He said "fair enough " lol.... He doesn't know his own mind, but basically texted me he has a hard time believing my interest but not to give up......
