Thanks! I'm just near the end of my rope and not coping very well in the moment as I expect myself to, and you're right, she's a pretty cool grandma. My kids like her better than they like my mom, and she's a heck of a lot harder to get them together with.
My dad got norovirus and was really feeling awful, and he's on 24/7 with my mom not doing so well, so I went over and brought him chicken soup and ginger ale, and took my mom down the hall for lunch to give him a break. We came back and he was snoozing in his chair, very cute, but my mom had trouble getting back; she's very weak.
Then I got home and fixed a chicken dinner to rousing applause from the teenagers (are they drunk? have the munchies? just being rambunctious?) who said it was like Thanksgiving dinner, and then had to beg and plead and offer favors to get S15 a sleepover so I could take S12 in for his sleep study. H said he'd drive S15 to school, but I don't think he's ready to be on his own overnight and I was very relieved when the other (single) mom agreed to take him. The sleep study was really interesting, quite an adventure. I got some funny pictures with S12 all hooked up to about 50 different electrodes and wires. Neither of us slept very well.
Today I checked in on my parents again and they both seemed better. I never checked on whether H remembered to go eat at his mom's last night. I have a feeling he forgot, but I'm not responsible for him or her.
I really really need to recharge somehow. I'm pulled in so many directions I feel I'm going to break into pieces. This weekend I'm taking S12 skiing with the boy scouts but even that feels like an imposition at the moment, and I haven't even returned the call from my friend who lives near the ski resort. I just want to hide under a rock.
H said he'd pay the 2/5 power bill, and now he's telling me he's not going to and I need to pay it. I haven't sat down to figure out yet if I'm burning savings or getting by. I think I'm burning savings.
Calgon, take me away.......
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
