In the last 5 days I almost feel like some switch has gone off inside of me. I don't know if it's a good thing, permanent or just something that is part of the changing weather. Although, I find myself much less interested in my W or what she is thinking or doing. Don't get me wrong, this week has been a piece of cake staying detached, which makes my life easier. I have also found that I am less interested in interacting with her, when she calls or stops by to pick up/drop off D, I find myself being almost short, like I don't really want to mince words or time as much as I have. She texted me today, and it was all I could do to muster up the interest in responding. She was asking me whether my business partners were referring to her work termination as "fired" or "laid off". She was concerned that "fired" paints her in a bad light. I could really care less, but I did reply that I had no idea, but I would pass along her info to the office. Yesterday, she texted me to make sure I would be able to get D to her daisys' meeting. Unfortunately, I was running late, D had homework and D and I had made previous plans to make some Valentines cupcakes. Therefore, she skipped her meeting. I didn't even respond to W's text. I know that's wrong, but I just wasn't interested in communicating with her. I felt pretty disconnected at the moment.
I fear this shift in emotion will affect my DBing to some degree. I just don't have much to say or be upbeat about when engaging W. I feel Dull, or slightly numb in regards to her.
So, is this sudden change in emotional interest a common thing? I'm not happy. I would still like my family back together. I do still miss her greatly, but I just feel a little disinterested this past week. Maybe this is a portion of the roller coaster that I haven't been on yet?????
