Today not-H said something not so philosophical to S21, ''well my life is over, I am dead anyway''! I am so sick of him...it's so ugly to hear someone's misery day in, day out!
he is 'IN " THIS mlc with you-
great analogy, he's in it, embarssing it, wallowing in it, letting it define who he is!
All I can say is thank you God, that I am in a healthier place, out of my fog, not crying anymore (i cannot believe how much I cried) and able to brush him off when he's being a complete idiot!
And, to think I still have a small reserve inside of me that I am protecting against him, for that one day maybe as long as never, that he is healthy again. Not for me, or our M, but for out R as parents and human beings. I would like to believe everyone has hope!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
