H acts like a robot these days. He was texting me about our banking this morning (which is great, it's hard to do the finances when you are getting surprises showing up on the debit card) But I told him he looked nice this morning when he came over, because he did. He answered that I did too ....but it's all just so dry and totally not like him. I did end up asking him if everything was ok and he said 'just peachy'. I want to tell him that he can talk to me if he wants, that I'm here for him. Probably not the nest idea but he just seems sad.
D and I are going to make him a collage of her paintings and some photos for Valentines day. I think he will like that - hopefully he doesn't see it as something to hang in his room at the other house bc I don't want him at home - obviously not the intention.
havne't really had a chance, or more so been in a situation, to work on most of my goals. I did start reading Let.It.Go last night.
I'm sad. I miss him lots these days. There are so many things I just want to tell him, it just wouldn't do any good. I don't want to appear like a cold person - especially since part of all this is how he says I was when we were first married - I don't want to appear to be that person. But I've got to guard my heart too.
