As I read more and more about MLC I am able to see now that his words, past mostly, and present are part of the script, it helps me not be so angry at the BS that comes out of his mouth. Funny how now in his new stage he's taking back some of those words, saying that has passed. I don't know what people mean about not remembering the spew, he seems to remember everything he ever said.
of course i have no corroboration from h - but i do not believe he knows what-all he's said. some is truly awful & out & out lies & reconstruction of past - it's icky.
YOUR H - tome it seems he cares to remember- he is 'IN " THIS mlc with you- unlike maybe my not-h who is having "his "OWN life times and doesn't see me as a part? i'm guessing what it could signify- it must signify something that your H BOTHERS to remember and address them - and sort of apologize or correct the record. in my land- that seems huge...
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He was very familiar...there were only small subtle signs of MLC but he was commutative. We didn't touch at all or cuddle but he did sleep the whole night in my bed. I looked over at one point and tried to feel something for him, I didn't.
OH GEEEZ - DID YOU JUST SAY THAT??? me too (as usual) I feel badly acknowledging it to myself and "the world" here. i feel sorrow to not find his face fond & "mind". i feel sorry to look at him objectively...
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In all fairness if he was reaching out to me, attempting to pull me toward him, literally and in his life, I may still be able to bring up some feelings that I am protecting, but I definitely lean more to the thought that I don't L him anymore. I hope this is normal LBS talk and that I am not coming off cold!
so- i'm responding to your comments - then reading what you say next - DID YOU JUST SAY THAT??? i can't believe your progression of thoughts go alongside mine- the self- protection. i guess it must be that way- we must do it- who else will..
okay- your hair sounds great and your pma too- looking forward to spring is great and i'm with ya - xxo
