well- i typed a thoughtful response (then honed it down) trying to be kind to the world- then THOUGHt i submitted it accidentally. then found out i did not- geeez -
loosly-
1) i am going to keep myself tighter in check and quit these drama interactions i have going with people not h- who find it amusing to jack me around because i'm such a dope i "always bite" - I'm going to view it all as being back in the office and keep myself strictly neutral- i've become lazy i think about that. give in to emotions too much - STEP BACK FROM THE EDGE a bit in life...
CONTINue the application process- do substitute teaching & be around kids and pma as much as possible...
keep own pma - don't keep trying to see into future- just exist today & have a good day
2) i can't remember - it was a very tidy and nice little list- oh well- if i ever remember what my plan for year was other than:
try and db til i cannot any more;
try and stop demanding i make giant and wise decisions when it's clear i do not see my way yet;
remain calm
STOP the drama interactions across the board - they're ruining my sleep- my self-image & any little bit of mental peace i have
ALWAYS see the good side first -
stop ranting (oh mannnnnnn. i'm getting better at just deleting all the JUNK - fingers crossed to get better and better still...
