Sometimes I have these moments of what the heck am I doing here? I am learning quite a bit though - all the hard way!
Those pesky expectations that everyone repeatedly tells me to keep at zero - I guess they got kind of raised when he was calling more and broke up with OW but then were dashed again when I realized that he wasn't calling to check in on me at all. So must force those down to zero and "act as if" he is an acquaintance that I do not know very well (which is probably closer to the truth!).
I am also finding that I still do not trust him nor do I completely trust that OW is out of his life like he said. He just withdrew too much out of the Fidelity & Trust Account.
Are MLCers really that clueless? That selfish? I know that mind reading is no good but I ask almost academically. They are worse than teenagers in my view. If I had not experienced this, I would not have believed it. I am still not sure that this is not some excuse to act badly. It's just so unlike the "old" him.
In a way though, his acting as if nothing is out of the ordinary in his life or in mine has helped me to detach a bit more. And that is good as there is someone else who really needs me right now. If he calls, I will listen but for the most part, I am hoping to pack him away in a box and leave him in the closet.
