The grieving is normal but if you notice it's taking over, get outside and do something.

I had a lot of the same stuff to heal from and I've been able to begin that, I'm sure you can too but it's hard work and don't expect immediate results.

Good luck!

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss