Sometimes, things happen and the rollercoaster starts again. I think I have to see what transpires in March when GF goes away. I realize it sounds like cake eating, but to give H a taste of what he will be missing and to keep emotional connection would be beneficial, I think, since he has says it was someone who wanted him that was nice.
I think I have to resign myself to where I am for a couple of months until I can see if the physical relationship will resolve anything. I do know it could throw me in deeper. In that instance, I will have to back out completely, I guess to save myself. I think I am strong enough to do this, but we will see.
Although I know it is not DB 100%, I think I must do what works in my sitch. If it doesn't, I can DB like a madwoman because what have I lost lol?
