This is getting harder with each day. I met with a new lawyer and everything is in place. I've got the money for the retainer, all I have to do is pull the trigger. Yet I find myself being terrified of actually going through with it. I hate how I'm acting, I'm moping and my moods are swinging. What's terrible is that I know I'm acting the exact opposite of how I should be, not very attractive.
MJ. You do this for YOU, not to attract HER.
YOU deserve someone honest and loyal who respects you, who treats you with some dignity.
SHE is not that right now.
You do this to protect yourself, and to reclaim your dignity that those two have taken from you. You do this in order to heal and protect yourself from further harm.
STOP worrying about how attractive that is.
What your spouse finds attractive is a cowardly, sleazy, interloper who trashes marriages. THAT is what your wife finds attractive.
STOP worrying about what your lying, cheating, wife thinks about this. She's made her choices, and now you make yours.
Live with her and allow he and her to erode your confidence and dignity, or put a stop to this business.
When you walk OUT of the triangle MJ, you put a stop to that affair. Now it's just an ugly, stagnant, thing they do without respectable foundation.
You end that affair when you refuse to be part of a triangle anymore.
You will be healthier, happier, and more confident getting FAR away from her right now.
