reforce on me

[littleGTO]

PoN, tell me more about EE. What is so great about it? And, thanks for the advice about breaking the distance/pursuit cycle. I have now gone two days w/o hugs.

Thanks everyone for advice about visitation and about the car ride together today.

We did go together & the car ride out was good, I think. We talked off & on about this and that. I shared w him about the charity bike ride I am doing this summer. He seemed a little interested, although didn't really ask any questions.

I complimented him on a new sweater he was wearing. He politely said, "thank you." (WoA)

The party went fine-only one family of our BIL was there & the guys all drank too much (including my H). I had to drive home & talk was minimum--I tried to talk a little but then H turned up the radio which made it clear that he didn't want to talk.

He left to go his apartment as soon as we got back.

The thing is that this day could have been a "normal" day for us in the past. H acted "normal" at the party. Everyone there acted normal toward him/me...I don't know what I expect, but something about it just isn't right! He acts like himself to everybody except me, like he hasn't really changed at all EXCEPT HE HAS!

eyes, thank you for your post. You are right that GAL may help me to find myself. There is a MEETUP this Friday night I am thinking about-playing indoor tennis w a coed group. I haven't played in a while but used to play pretty well & I always enjoyed it. Maybe this could be a baby step for me.