Gonna be different now, (butterfly in hurricane).

[Big Bruce]

Take your wife out of the occasion for a minute.
What do you think of YOU?
I thought I was slightly "above average" in all areas, and I was proud of it. Now I see that not only I am more than average, I am even a cliche of why wives abandon men..

What do you think about the way you have treated your W?
As I said, I am very normal and average, in the sense that all that a new couple shouldn't do, we did. All the errors that a newly wed husband should avoid, I did.

What do you think of the way you treated your S?
I was hoping that I could play ball with him, and for some reason that I would connect with him. I guess I was disappointed when when S was just a baby who didn't understand a thing, and couldn't even sit, nevermind stand or run. So I was "waiting", before getting involved. Too bad for me, my W didn't appreciate my seemingly lack of interest...


Have you forgiven yourself for your part?
I think I have, in the sense that I know what I did wrong, and that I wouldn't do that again. It's called experience, maturity or learning with life I guess. It wasn't done out of malice, this I know, therefore I have forgiven myself.

Who is responsible for the demise of your M?
The question is misleading, because, did I have the emotional ability to see what was going on in my W's head? Did I have the resources to understand what she was going through? Conversely, did she have the intellectual capacity, or let's say, the knowledge, the perspective and information enough to analyze why the husband was reacting the way he was? What was behind the matter with the husband?


Have you been honest with yourself about how bad your actions have been? Or are you trying to minimize them, so as to not feel as much guilt?
I recognize my actions were horrible, but if I recognize responsibility, I do not accept guilt.
To make an example everybody will understand, were the endoctrinated nazi youth guilty for what they thought or did?
No, they acted accordingly to what was taught to them, as anyone of us would have done. Same here, as a newlywed young professional born in my culture, I reacted exactly like how I was supposed to. Some of my friends still don't understand the heck s going on with W.. and I don't blame them, I was the same. So, responsible yes, guilty no.