Thanks Subguy! I've heard good things about the divorce care classes since I've been asking around, so I'm going to give it a try.
Kat, I did go to a therapist for about a year in 2008, and I was pretty much good to go after that. But just find I still need to working on handling X when I have to without getting migraines and stomach aches. I would have thought his anger would have lessened by now, after 6 years, but no...
I don't think I want to stay at my job the next 20 years, so I do eventually want to find something else, but I am happy where I am now most of the time. Child support ends for S19 when he graduates high school in June this year, but I'm hoping X will put some of that into community college this fall which he has his heart set on. I could probably go to court and get the meds in place, but I am so sick of court at this point! The psychiatrist was tired of him wanting her to go off them every appointment, so she wants us to take Jamie off them this summer and then take her to Shands for testing. The last time we tried taking them off her meds 2 or 3 summers ago, she was suicidal so I am not too happy, but I'm hoping this will resolve the situation, and if not I could use that as documentation in court if I wind up having to go so I agreed to it.
I find X mostly insults my parenting, which is the only thing that really does sometimes gets to me. I realize I still feel guilty over 2007 being so depressed and not a good mom that year, which I'm going to work on with the therapist. I do think if I can forgive X, which I have, I should be able to forgive myself too!
