Thank you folks! I am pretty swirly in the head right now...lol.

Need to get some journalling out...

This morning was A LOT more and I think, based on how W has traditionally been, this will be a wild ride, floodgates sort of thing, she has usually been pretty "all or nothing".

I am having some interesting reactions, such as I am sort of disappointed that OM ended it, rather than her (and of course this bothers W, she wanted to be the one when she was ready, and she does love being pursued, hence my choice of song lyrics)...this really has me cautious of histrionic hoovering...I don't trust this yet, and that kind of bothers me (but not too much wink There were more apologies and remorse, she doesn't like that she could do these bad things.
Her word choices are showing me clarity and some new maturity, such as she doesn't want to revert to her old dynamic of me being her therapist, and other things like that. The awareness is nice.

I have this quote stuck to my desktop now from AmyC's thread (if memory serves):

Quote:
To you I'll say this: If you don't humble yourself at this time, if you let pride make you bitter and vengeful, she will never feel able to ask your forgiveness. And THAT ALONE IS PARAMOUNT to her coming out of MLC a better and stronger person.

You see, the hardest thing for her will be forgiving herself and she can never do that unless she can come back and talk with you.

Love her or not, leave her or not, you've got to make yourself a person (because you are THE person) she can come to and apologize. This is when you're going to have your feet held to fire and you'll find out if your love is really unconditional.


So all that work this last 1.5 years is now going to the test, feels like when I was a musician before a big, important gig...so I can do this.... smile

T^2

In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus

Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm