Thank you Whitney and 25. I kind of agree with both of you. 25, you gave me a lot to think about. As for my postings here, you are right, they are basically on bad days when i just need to vent.

Today is one of those days.

I'm sure I'll get the 2x4 for this.

I've just been doing so much thinking and still struggle with the disbelief that things turned out this way.

She now has her wedding invitations out and the date is June 15.

Apparently, they have already bought a house.

My S20 said to me the other night that he thinks that she left because of money. I almost believe him.

I've noticed that I get anxiety when I hear something about her or know that she is on the phone with one of our sons. Why is this? I get weak in the knees and get a weird feeling in my stomach and all over. Why?

I am struggling. Still.

I've got a second date with a woman on Tuesday that I really don't want to go to. I feel nothing.

Anyways, just a bad two days and sorry for rambling....

Tad

Currently:
M 56 XW 57
Sons 38,33,31,29

The Sitch:
Married 26 years
EA w/ OM 9/10
Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary)
Sep 12/10
She wants D 1/11
W files 5/11
D final 10/11
XW marries OM 6/13