I'm more detached every day. I was sitting in the middle of my bed with the tv brought forward to the edge of my bed late night when h walked in and saw me content with my movie and in my comfort. I know he saw I was making an adjustment to life without him.
This morning he was watching my favorite movie and he said have a seat. He tried to make small talk and joke a little. I had my coffee and removed myself after the movie. It will be his loss!!! I'm a good companion, easy going, and loving, he's not going to top that in his new world!
I try to spend more time thinking about my attributes instead of what he was to me, operative word being " was". When I feel myself slipping back I then remind myself how he's not what I want. As I say this his cigarette smoke is coming into my bedroom window....not what I want!
Nero, everyday I am chasing my tail trying to just learn how to GAL. I am detached better but still haven't been able to know my next step. I still need to get out there and make friends, work, and play!
Baby steps!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
