You have been through so much the past few days and seem to be doing a great deal of grieving and letting go. (((((((((((((((((((((( )))))))))))))))))))))
It is hard to remember..but the TRUTH is that you have been and are still doing the work to be a better you and that this WILL pay off as you move forward. from reading your posts, i too believe that you will find great happiness and love.
and i love the book idea.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13