oh yeah- my continuation of yesterday when i "got scared away" - in middle of comment
i was walking around thinking "dawn of the dead" - describingh me - but thinking of your comment about being thru with your gyy and him not being the man you'd want if this is what he is going to remain-
anyway- something like that- me thinking me too . there's more to life than THIS - feeling like crap company to some jerk who is in fact crap company themselves- YET judging us- and us FEELING IT!!!
THE total insanity of it all. easy to say detach- i'm waaay mroe detached than ever before- surprise myself. but even the being detached makes me feel bad to be the kind of person and to feel so ??? what) for this person i loved so wildly- it's sad in and of itself- the detachment.
and of course - at the end of the day- the post - our lives??? there's always teh question- why in the world are we even gtrying if we're totally totally detached (as in finality?)
oh well- what i bore i've become with this all huh? i'm sure it's like watching your crazy old dog chase his tail- never ever ever getting it....
fingers crossed that there's something out there "to get" in the end.
ta da.xxo have a great day. OH YEAH- honestly- i thibnk in the e nd they kn ow exactly what they mean to us and what the heck we're doing accepting their crap and hanging on. do they appreciate it- probably not. do they kn ow it's there and what it is? i'd say yes. amaybe i give them too much credit- my h does not want to hear it (more guilt please) it's interesting your h does? maybe he's not sure-
