There's really not much to go on here. You want transparency, does that mean he's had affairs in the past?

Go and hear what he has to say, listen and validate. Then see where you are.

But there must be more to your story.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss