You hear a lot about how WAS is in turmoil, but right now I feel like I'm the one in turmoil.

I've been doing great. Last week I didn't even want to meet her(not out of resentment). I took S out of town to the zoo and had a great time, she seemed pretty stunned when she found out. Which, sadly, probably says a bit about my commitment early on...

So anyway, today I helped S pick out a flower and make a card for her. It was a lot of fun, and she was happy to recieve it. She sat down and showed me photos and videos of S. A lot of eye contact. In one of the videos S is talking about daddy that and daddy this, felt pretty good to hear he is thinking about me when I'm not there. She is showing me the pics/vids on her phone, and also gave me access to her Ipad. At BD she locked both of them b/c she couldn't trust me.

She mentioned school again and I asked what her roadmap was and what thoughts she had about it. A lot better conv than last time. She constantly mentions how she has started working out. She mentioned her thoughts about building the house we were supposed to build together. She mentioned several times if I was going to have S on thursday(valentines). I said I was.

In relation to a conv about a mutual friend she said "yeah I mean, if you ever got a new GF I.." On impuls I cut her of with "if?" She corrected to "when.." It was an impuls, but pretty needless, I know.
She then "jokingly" proceeded asking S if daddy has got a new GF several times. He nodded, but of course he didn't understand what she meant. I just ignored it.

So, to sum up. I'm doing great and have been feeling like I'm really moving on. The other day several women initiated conv, smiled or said hello when I was out shopping etc. Good for a confidence boost. Then, our interaction today, and she leaves. And I'm left with a strange feeling in my stomach. A somewhat sad and strange feeling. IDK what it is, or what it means....BAH! IDK where I stand, and I don't really feel like I know where she stands.

Together for 8,5 years.
S2
Interest in OM.
She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out.
No signs of OM, not digging.
Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.