I am keeping a journal, I have been since this started of everything that happens. I think its part of the reason I am so conflicted because he really is being an a@@ as a father but yet I still love him and want him to come home and feel that this OW and the life he is living with her is affecting not only him returning but his abilities as a father. I don't think he would be the way he is now if he was just willing to work on our M. People think I'm an idiot for still wanting him after all of this, some days I think the same thing. I just feel that 15 years and a child together is not something to throw away and is worth saving.
No more emails about "us". I do have to email him today to ask him to come back out to plow the driveway.
