No, I don't want any new relationship, but I have to eventually not keep giving him my heart. Right now its his and his alone, always has been. I guess I just don't think I can "officially" move on until it is no longer his as that is what he did. He's willing to let OW into D's life and I'm not willing to do that but know unless he comes back, that will happen and I don't want that to happen.
I do have a L but what H is proposing is not fair but I think I should just give in because its what he wants and I won't pi@@ him off by fighting him.
I don't know how to "let go" and just focus soley on me. I have been doing good I think, I'm working through my self esteem issues and taking care of myself and D, she's doing really well and adjusting well, but he's always on my mind, and trying to "fix this" is always on my mind.
