Just an update. I've not contacted H even though I've wanted to. I'm a bit sad that he's not contacted me. It really makes me wonder if he really wants to be together. I've focused on me and my kids. The things I've done to take care of myself recently are:
- new hairstyle & color - manicure/pedicure (I let it go for a long time) - wearing makeup everyday - wearing bright and cheery colors instead of black - being friendly to people when I'm out (making chit chat at church or stores) - cleaning my house - starting a business that's I've procrastinated on - watching a movie to unwind - getting a massage - distancing from a toxic biased shoulder
I'm also in 12 step so I'm back to meetings. I had let them slide after a move.
I'm nervous about the "criteria" discuss tomorrow. I'm not really sure what to expect. I don't have anything prepared. A 180 for me is to go unprepared. That way my H has the floor, so to speak. I'm the big talker, so I think this would be totally different than anything I've done in the past.
Ideas anyone?
M: 44 H: 49 4 children from previous R (3 @ home, 1 in college) M: 4 S: 12/12 H wants to come home: 2/13
