reforce on me

[littleGTO]

Tori,
I DO appreciate H digging us out and I told him that today TWICE! In fact that is one of my consistent 180's--thanking him for all the "little" and big stuff he does. He felt taken for granted. I sincerely thank him for EVERYTHING now & it feels natural to me. I know he's recognized this.

eyes,
Am I afraid to change the dynamics? No. Am I afraid of not having my kids? YES. I want them to be in their own home--for them and for me. Am I fearful of "getting out there?" YES. I don't to. A part of me wants to continue in my comfort zone. But, I know I NEED to.

I also want a "big card" to play when H starts dating OW. (Him not coming to house on w/e's will not go down well w him.)

He said today that he felt "stupid" that he did not know that I was getting a kitten before the boys. And, when was I planning to tell him?

I also ask a neighbor friend to come look at my washer to see if he could fix it before I spent a mint paying to have it serviced. H was in driveway when neighbor pulled up & said I had called to have him look at it. Later, H said he felt "dumb" that I had called neighbor (H isn't very "handy", but neighbor is).

I both counts I thought "TOO BAD!" but said nothing in response (but did validate!).