Some journaling and a question. I have a bit of a head cold and the kids are away for the weekend. Didn't feel like doing much last night and my normal climbing friends were busy, but I decided to go to the climbing gym alone. A bit out of my comfort zone.
I noticed a lady by herself and decided to ask if she needed a climbing partner. Again out of my comfort zone. I am so glad I did. We climbed for about 3 hours and had a great time. I did my best to keep the focus on her. It was great practice on listening. Going out tonight with some friends and a bunch of other people I don't know. Sounds like mostly women, more practice time. I think it makes it easier to interact when I know I am not ready to jump into another R, and I just want to learn how to listen and support.
My question has to do with comments my w had made. We were talking about custody agreement and the money that goes along with it. It seems she thinks I am more concerned about the money that I have to pay her, and I think she is trying to get more than she should. She expressed concern that she stays home and plays games with the kids, while I am out with the kids doing things that cost money. I do take them climbing and things that do cost money, not anything expensive. She has also commented how I always am working and spending money on the house.
Is this normal jealousy of GAL activities, or something that is a general concern and a potential 180? I really enjoy those things and I will not stop climbing with my friends. I could easily have just as much fun staying home with the kids as well.
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on
