you are most probably correct. i admit that what i have here is a "habit" - and i've lately been thinking of as my own little "addiction" that needs kicking.
i've watched some alcoholics and smokers around me trying and trying- i'd liken my situation to theirs. no more or less.
it's a bummer and hard - they try and fail and then some succeed- i hope for success too.
i know what you are saying and say it to myself- my outlook is generally good i think- tho, i don't want to go to the "too optimistic" place. i can also be very very overly-romantic in my outlook- i'd say i need to t one that down a bit in life.
maybe part of why i'm where i am? just too much positive spin on things that are merely real life?
don't know- i guess you're right about other people for me- and i do not totally rule it out. i just have a notion lately i've managed to be on the "outs" with everyone in my life it would seem- they don't like me not being who i usually am (happy little doormat). wehre that all lands up i don't know-
