I guess what befuddles me, CV, is that you are able to sit there in the middle of the indifference. How? Am I just weak? I can't do it. I try like heck, but all that seems to happen is that my mental state erodes more and more. I got a job here in TN because it was offered and the advice I got was to get myself set financially. However, my mental state continues to deteriorate because I am still subjected to the nonsense going around me. I am so confused but it seems to me the advice to stay here for financial reasons might be bad advice.
So... he wants to go to counseling. He told me on the phone yesterday, "it sounds like we are just too sensitive to be around each other and we should part ways." He talked to me last night for awhile and he says we need to keep trying and go to counseling. I seriously need a ticker to keep up on it all. If there were any consistency whatsoever I sure would know what to do. And I guess I'm driven by guilt which isn't very good either. Wish he would feel guilty about his own actions. But the only time he seems to pay attention to me is when it suits him. And that just sounds like a bad arrangement to me.
