How is your crossroads different now , and how are you gonna get to where you wanna be ???
Well, the one thing that is very different is the fear is gone. I think it was Busto who once told me, lose the fear, lose the limbo. You may have said something similar. It was a long time coming, tied mostly to my need to find relevant work. But now that that issue seems to be solved (at least for now anyway), I can focus on moving forward without fear of what the future holds for me. I also believe my time away (3 months in Maine) was a huge plus in terms of helping clear my mind. With nothing to do but be alone with my thoughts, surrounded by the rugged beauty of the Maine coastline and in-land mountains, I found it to be a very cleansing experience. I also needed to be able to envision life beyond the misery I had been experiencing and that came about only after I began to regain my confidence. It is still not 100%, but I am miles away from the dark place I had been last spring.
So how am I going to get where I want to be? One day and step at a time, I imagine. That is all I can say for now. It will be interesting to see how my story develops from here. I'll keep y'all posted.
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It's easy to find our bottom, it is our top that requires cultivation.
Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife
