First of all these thoughts aren't good for anyone....stop it. Secondly he has stayed with you during the tough times of the last couple of years. Give both of you some credit. Thirdly, you were fine before he came back, yes struggling I know but you were fine. You would be again. I believe the tighter you hold on to something or someone the faster they want to get away.
You are an incredible woman. You are a terrific Mom. I think of you as family even though we have never met. You have gifts to give those around you. Empower Gabe and hope he gets a good job so that he can contribute to his family in a significant way. He will be shocked by the confidence you exude. It will draw him to you like a moth to a flame! Confidence my dear.
Love ya! Kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory