SS, you've done so much work on yourself! You should be so proud of where you are now! The sadness and pain is to be expected, but you'll come through it, and better in the end. There are no shortcuts, unfortunately, I wish there were. Don't beat yourself up. I was just thinking today about all the stupid things people do for love. It's obvious from the outside, or looking back, but when you're in it, love really is blind. And that's as much blind to your own actions as to it's typical meaning of being blind to another person's flaws. Be kind to yourself. It was just part of your journey. (((SS)))
