Grizz, I feel for you as I am in the same situation. Good days, bad days and some days just want vent as well. Yes the longer it goes on the more I am scared it is over and I don't really want to lose that loving feeling about her, but worry that I will.
ME:51 W:46 M:25 S:22, S:20 Divorced 16/9/15 BD 10/12 W left 12/12 with OW, affair confirmed Nov/12. Dark since 6/13 I"m in a new relationship since Feb 14.