LOL. While I am Italian and my uncle’s arms are bigger than my thighs, no he’s not worried about being threatened. He just knows that there are a few family members who want to come here and get me out of here. My uncle and my brother lead that parade. Yesterday, I got a call from my uncle while on the phone with H. I asked H to hang on because “Uncle xxx” was on the phone. Because of my confession of OM last week, he has been uneasy about who I am talking to even though I insisted it was over so that’s why I told him who it was. But I wasn’t thinking because that it was my uncle caused a bigger problem.
The text messages are largely antidotal (the weather, work, my job), they are a means of “making sure I’m still there.” The phone calls are a bit different. He keeps asking if I’m ok, or what’s wrong or something along those lines. And yes, I pick up most of the calls and answer the texts. I’ve always done that because I am not looking to be mean to him or anyone. The only exception to that is if/when we are fighting and things aren’t nice between us (as in the case of last weekend). I try my best to be kind and understanding that he is going through his own trauma and to cut him off is cruel. I see so many spouses do that to people on these boards and I see the pain people are in because of it and I can’t and won’t do that to him.
With that said, I just hung up with him after speaking for 2 ½ hours (thanks for keeping me company as I made my way through that). I am exhausted. It sounds like he’s willing to concede that we should divorce. Sigh. Sad. And relieved. Need to go to my friend’s house for now. Need to get out of here.
