Confused compass?

[JJAC2005]

Thanks for the reply AND HONESTY!
I need to listen better to what is here...it looks to be a very long road ahead....and right now I see the chances are slim to none to say the least.

I did send her one last email hoping to get a sliver of a change in her stance, but she has yet to reply.....that was probably wrong of me to send as well.
as follows:
I saw that you wrote me that you can forgive but not forget....can I ask why you are not allowing any room in your heart for forgiveness?
We have been a family for 7 plus years....I have not seen the kids since early Sept.....or heard from Colton since mid Nov.
I'm not asking for a lot....but a place to start to mend a little bit of a friendship...we both have a lot of qualities that could lend itself to a nice friendship

When I asked you for the meeting...I had NO idead that you would turn around so quickly, and its a tad bit unfair that you call me selfish on changing my plan when I wanted to make the best of that situation.
I saw your smile...not just once....I saw your eyes....and I heard you tell me that you just were not ready for a meeting, and that you were not strong enough.
I know it will take time for you to see the changes that have already taken place in my life and I can only hope that you can forgive me enough to want to see them someday.
But keeping the kids from a relationship with me after all we have shared as a family is a little harsh and completely unfair to them....I would think that you could realize just how much Colton misses me...and I know that you know I was a great dad to these kids....even if I messed up a few things with you.
I hope you will reconsider....start to move to a more friendly interaction.