I struggle when he seems so happy and talking about his new life.
me too - and i wonder when the FINAL ANSWER will bop me on the head and i'll know where i'm going with this. i don't know if i can love him again or not. i don't know if i do but can't tap into it- i don't know anything about this guy anymore. and how i feel about him and where he will fit in my life (in the end).
i feel same- when he's all happy seeming- i want to back over him with my car.
HOW DARE he even be all happy in my face becasue he's going to see ow or with his new (better) stinkin life. for 35 years I'VE been person making him happy- i do not want to just be any ole ho hum person in his life to him. it hurts and it's not fair and it's not REAL (JUST MY humble opinion) i get it- if he feels it- it's real.) i am apparently still resisting like mad.
i'm just mad about that- i am soooo much more than what he is making me in his head and heart. like being in prison for crime i didn't do- his blame is nuts
wah wah- i know- get a grip- move past it- like you- i struggle. (alot)
