uhm seems as things are not quite as good as I thought!! I feel taken advantage of in this marriage. I have spent a lot of time this week with the children as DH is very busy at work. I am too, but that seems less important. Was also feeling rather abandoned as he has been out on several work related evenings, drinks etc and I realised that we have not been out for dinner with each other since last year on our own. We did go out for a drink but it was a fateful evening again last year where I wondered what would happen if I didn't initiate physical contact with DH the whole evening. The results were interesting!! I don't think it is that he doesn't care but he just doesn't seem to. Remember the rules: I need to get a life but it is so wonderful having someone else that cares about you and your life. I really really miss it, but I am going to have to learn to live without it for the moment and perhaps for ever. When I feel like this I find that writing a letter to my mother or my sister really really helps. Adinva, I think of you and wonder if in this situation, you would now say something....but I can't, I really don't want to. It is like asking for hugs...I will find my hugs somewhere else without breaking the boundaries of my marriage. ***I can do this, and survive****
Me 49y H 52y T23 y M17 y ??EA June 2012 with younger co-worker children 8-12
