reforce on me

[littleGTO]

Rick,very interesting your take on my #4. Unfortunately my issue was kind of the reverse--I made kids#1 ALL the time and H #2 or 3 or 4.... so our R suffered because I always needed to be super mom and make sure I was/am doing right by them.

Unfortunately I am still doing this by controlling visitation. I talked w my IC about this today and she suggested I think hard about changing visitations for ME. Meaning, the kids will be fine if they visit H at his little, expensive, savings-account draining apartmt (sorry got off track there) and not have H come to house on w/e's where I am forced to either be there w him or go and find something to do (which I tend to do).

Rick, sorry to hear your D is not doing well in school. No child should repeat a grade for a third time...where will this get her (dropped out!). Her self esteem has already got to be suffering. Just saying my two cents.

sucker,
I don't usually ask for hugs but I do feel that it softened up the "coldness" a bit that has been lingering between us.

And, I almost never talk to him at night when he talks to boys at bedtime. So, filling him in b/c S11's school called b/c he had gotten an in-school detention, so I felt H needed to know. Somehow that was interesting/important enough to hold his attention to cut me off.

I've always been a sensitive person & take things to heart, so when H acts a certain way towards me it is very hard not to take it personally. The man I love treats me like $hit yet I still love him......odd when I think about it.