He laid a lot on you and you had your say about the checkup, etc. Now you will need to step back and see if he "heard" what you said. Make some plans for yourself today and get out there and do something, even if it is just a walk or picking up a coffee.
Yea, I stayed up a while going over some of the thing he said and reading my new book about healing even the most desperate of marriages. It's a good read about the 5 languages of L, and how to be kind and generous even if you don't L your S, it will bring them closer to you, and maybe even make them reach out.
And, I did just as you said, went out for coffee, and bought some delicious pastries for the family that even H enjoyed quietly when I returned. I kept it light, made his lunch (I will always be helpful to him when it comes to work) and said see ya later, he returned my goodness with a sink full of clean dishes, a swept floor, and kiss on the cheek
I keep thinking alien...mothership...deep down in the darkness, somewhere is the truth....we may never know!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!