Listen, Crimson, we get to come here and say what we want... what's on our mind so I want to stay very mindful that is what you are doing... Saying what you want here so you don't screw up out there. So my words here are more of a reminder to you than a lecture to you...
You are analyzing what she is thinking way too much. And it is so pointless I cannot even begin to tell you. I wish to God that Sandi would show up here so you can understand it from the perspective of another WAW. I want you to hear me CLEARLY. If you asked her right now if your parents moving out spooked her she might say yes... at 8:46 CST. At 9:00 CST, if you asked her, she will have a whole other reason. At 9:10 CST, she will deny being spooked at all. At 9:20 CST, she might even fall in love with the idea of reconciling with you... only to crash at 9:30 CST having an epiphany that it might really be over. If you think I'm kidding, please please please go find Sandi and she will tell you the same exact thing. This is why I am telling you... do NOT change anything. She is the picture of instability right now. So you MUST be the stable one. I know you are not feeling all that stable inside, but what you show her is STABILITY.
Your curiosity is understandable, however, it's like you are trying to solve an unsolvable riddle. Will this come to a conclusion? You bet. But that's going to take awhile. So you are very right, one day at a time. And today? YOU ARE NOT GOING TO FIGURE THIS OUT. So stop spinning your wheels. It [censored]. I get it. I spin my wheels 24/7 so I know how you feel. You have my empathy, believe me. But this is going to happen in God's timing, not yours. What did He tell you? Hand her to me. You don't get to hand her to God and then try to take it back from Him. He didn't tell you to do that. He told you to hand her over to Him.
