I don't know, the more you describe yourself, the more I think I'm right. Being strong doesn't mean you aren't scared. Bravery is doing something in the face of fear. You are always willing to do something. That's bravery, that's strength and it requires confidence. Many people would refuse to get in front of that camera. Many would collapse when faced with crisis. You do it afraid? Pftttt... Nope, I had it quite right, I think.
My first marriage ended after my 3rd miscarriage. While it wasn't THE reason, it was definitely the proverbial straw. I was afraid to try again because it hurt so much. I met my H and he didn't want children and I thought it was perfect. Several years ago, it was discovered I had an undiagnosed thyroid disorder which is known to cause miscarriages. Did it cause mine? Who knows. But, I tell you, I've regretted my decision more and more about not trying again. And that cannot be with my H as he does NOT want children. But what? I mean I get divorced and meet a man in a couple of years? I mean at BEST, I'd be 43? Ugh. Not sure that's so fair to a child. Given the state of affairs my life's in? Pipe dream anyway...
You really don't know if he loves you? Hmmmm... I really really believe my H does (I think yours too). I'm not saying the love us the way that we need... show it the way that we need, but I think they do. Their actions absolutely betray their words and that was the final straw for me. But does my H love me? Yeah, I'm willing to lay down a lot of money on that bet.
