trying to get her back

[MrBond]

"I am only suggesting trite because, her excuses changed as our time apart grow.. It was like she was grasping for answers when I asked why."

The fact that she even gave you answers gives you a starting point. You have to be able to weed out the rubbish comments and see what she is really saying.

"We are going to mediation."

Who set it up?

"I wrote to her and told her that I will not be asking for a divorce. She responded she would like a divorce."

Then you tell her that she will have to do it on her own.

"I feeel like. "responding that was the trouble with our marriage I always did what you liked. And lost site of my wants and needs". But that is probably not a good idea."

Yes not a good idea. Start doing what YOU want to do and take charge of YOUR life.