If you asked her what "this is," I bet you that she couldn't answer you. Or, you'd need a ticker to keep up on the responses. I would bet my last dollar she couldn't answer it.
I spent a long time very unclear about what I wanted to do. One minute I was in love with my H, the next minute, I wasn't. One minute I wanted to try again, the next minute I didn't. One minute I would literally freak the heck out about being near him, the next I was more calm. I will tell you that I was scared to death that he would try to become intimate with me. That was a big fear of mine but understand my breakup was due to an affair. I want you to go spend the night over at the piecing thread. Start at the BEGINNING of everyone's threads. You will see example after example after example of the WAS cycling like I was.
Crimson, it IS an act "as if" moment. If she wants to have a R talk with you, then so be it. But you proceed as you always have. I do not advise you pull back. I think that is a bad idea at this point especially considering that she WANTS to still go out. And I will tell you, her reasons for wanting to go out will change moment to moment until Saturday. She is testing you right now. She is watching you VERY carefully to see how you react. And I am advising you strongly, be the new Crimson.
