I'm sorry to hear that several other people that you know have passed on. It takes time to find that "peaceful place" again, but you will. Give yourself plenty of time for healing.
It's very true that you did start out as friends w/your man and then the relationship grew. It can happen again by starting out in a friendship w/no expectations.
Hang in there!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
