hope your sleep is deep and long and good. i envy you that.
anyway- i know, you're rite and will endeavor to keep my distance (mentally & emotionally). it's hard isn't it- i've said that to you fifty thousand million times haven't I.??
no extra charge. okay today- so yay for tht. hope your day is a good one too.
i know i cannot assume one darn thing has changed (really). it's hard to remember sometimes- but reality is always there on my shoulder. it makes me a bit negative sounding i think- now that i say that- i guess that falls under the heading of stfu huh? not to h or about r- just in general conversation.
i have to watch it to not let my negativity about people in my life currently slip out. i'm disenchanted in a major way.
wonder if i've always expected too mucch from people - and maybe put too much good spin on everything in my life (or does it just seem that way now because i'm kidn of off the rose colored glasses? my neice invited us to dinner formy birthday- so that's a surprise and very nice gesture on her part. and h is taking me to dinner wherever i want.
so, that's something. i always like to eat - and don'tusually feel much likie cooking anything elaborate - so yay for food.
it's wierd to try and juggle the "be your old charming self" and the "be pleasantly detached" - hard for me drawing lines- find myself falling into old habits of hopping up to find things, etc. half the time i remember to stop . i usually remember not to respond when i hear him talkin in some other room where i can't possibly hear- and USED to go over to hear what he wanted.
it's little- but it's something. let me think- anything else positive (howcome it's so easy to find the negative?)
